Thinking alot...

I've been thinking alot about life, death, purpose, meaning, etc... so, Mike recommended this blog to me that I found quite amazing. He said that he's not posting right now because of family issues, but his previous blogs have some great insight. He's in his 90's and his wife just went to a nursing home. This specific post talks about not wanting to go (to die) for various reasons. Several being that he hasn't done all the things he's wanted to do. It really gets you thinking...
Recently, I had a talk with some friends about getting to the end of your life and looking back. Will we wonder what the point was? Have we done everything we've wanted to? One of my friends said it perfectly... "When you are dying, do you want to look back on your life like it was a book without any meaning or purpose?" I mean, imagine reading a book and thinking all the way through, "Why the fuck did they write this?!"

Well the point of all this is that I've been thinking alot about having purpose each and every day... Not just sleeping and going to work and maybe putting my clothes away, cooking a meal or two. Having goals and a set purpose. (Momma always said that you need to make lists of what you need to accomplish!)
I want to become self-sufficient. Up until this point, Mike has done most of the work. Sometimes I get caught up in worrying about the money aspect. I don't want to make money so I can be rich. I'd rather make the things we need and get rid of the middle man all-together! This quote was on one of the blogs that "Don to Earth" wrote... (The one I recommended earlier.)

G.K. Chesterton: To be clever enough to get a great deal of money, one must be stupid enough to want it.

That's not to judge other people, but for myself the goal is not to make money. The goal is to enjoy life (not at the expense of other people), get the things done that I want to accomplish and to do so leaving a light foot-print on Mother Earth...